Can I be real a second? For just a millisecond? Like my guard down and tell you how I feel for just a second?I'm in it. Right now. Have been for about 2 weeks. It's getting harder and harder to function. I don't want to get out of bed. I don't went to get off... Continue Reading →
This is no joke. I have 3 kids living with us. 2 bio 1 bonus. My mother in law also lives with us. My dog barks at nothing. Each kid has a device and no internal monolog. My own internal monolog is loud and im multiple voices. Work - did I get those updates, did... Continue Reading →
Stay bright when the sun won’t shine.
Everyone's a mental health expert anymore. Everyone has a mom, uncle, sister, cousins roommate from college with depression, anxiety, OCD, bipolar, PTSD, and so on. And the moment you say, "I have (insert mental illness)," these well meaning people will tell you what worked for the people in their lives. I've heard it all. Take... Continue Reading →
Adventures in anxiety land
Here we go again. Another attack. I really didn't expect this to happen. Usually, an attack I have a slump. A down. I guess that's what happens when your brain is telling your body your being chased by something that wants to eat you. After my attack yesterday, I was exhausted. Physically. Mentally. Today, I... Continue Reading →
I hate my anxiety
I've been looking forward to going to the minicon vintage stock was holding today. As soon as the Bunny left for the Weekend to go to a concert we started to head out. We got vintage stock and I knew the second the door opened I had not prepared for this level of peopling. The... Continue Reading →
What Would You See?
This is me having a panic attack. We were at a family gathering. There was some tension between two members of my husband's family. Each one kept approaching me, venting their frustrations, then leaving. Basically, each one emotionally and verbally vomited on me and left me to deal with the mess. I don't like confrontation.... Continue Reading →
Disney Bounding as Sadness
Sometimes, life requires a little sadness. Not every day is joy and kittens and rainbows. Sometimes, you have to let the tears fall. And, that's ok. It's ok to not be ok. What's not ok is not letting yourself feel those feelings. They are a part of you. They are what makes you You. So,... Continue Reading →
Law of attraction and depression
Hi lovies. I love you all. And we know, life is hard for many of us right now. Some of us have legal issues, medical issues, family issues. Some can't find a job or one that pays a decent wage. Some of us have problems with insurance and we worry daily that insurance will be... Continue Reading →
My Family and My Depression
This is what I would like my family to know. I see the looks I get. Sometimes anger, mostly disappointment. They see me in the same spot on the couch, wearing the same thing I did yesterday. The laundry is piled on the chair, the dishes are piled in the sink. Dinner’s not planned, let... Continue Reading →