The Glorious Train Wreck Mom

This is a safe space for all train wrecks. Except here, we don't give you a puppy and a latte. We give you sarcasm and humor.

Self care? What’s that? Today’s the 4th of july. And people are coming. My husband’s family is coming. My in laws are coming. Self care has left the building and it left the damn door open. Guess what strolled in? Anxiety. And that anxiety is edging towards a panic attack. I meant to wake up …

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This was me yesterday. Sensory overload. Phones. People. Team. Party. Set up. People I dont know. Eating. Small room. Loud room. It was too much. I was cold and sweaty. Edge of tears. Shaking. Not talking. Eyes darting. Dizzy. Couldn’t focus. But I still had work to do. Still needed to listen to calls. Still …

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A lot of people talk about the symptoms of an anxiety or panic attack. Very seldom will you hear about post attack symptoms. Dry mouth, exhaustion, embarrassment. I chew my tongue, cheeks, and lips during an attack. The pain after keeps me from eating. Not like I’m very hungry with the churning stomach and migraine. …

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Here we go again. Another attack. I really didn’t expect this to happen. Usually, an attack I have a slump. A down. I guess that’s what happens when your brain is telling your body your being chased by something that wants to eat you. After my attack yesterday, I was exhausted. Physically. Mentally. Today, I …

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Hiding in the bathroom at work. That’s what this is. All because my brain doesn’t work right. That’s not right. My brain works right for someone who has been through repeated, prolonged abuse and trauma. In that light, my brain did exactly what it is supposed to do. It’s frustrating for me. When this happens …

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I’ve been looking forward to going to the minicon vintage stock was holding today. As soon as the Bunny left for the Weekend to go to a concert we started to head out. We got vintage stock and I knew the second the door opened I had not prepared for this level of peopling. The …

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This is me having a panic attack. We were at a family gathering. There was some tension between two members of my husband’s family. Each one kept approaching me, venting their frustrations, then leaving. Basically, each one emotionally and verbally vomited on me and left me to deal with the mess. I don’t like confrontation. …

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Sometimes, life requires a little sadness. Not every day is joy and kittens and rainbows. Sometimes, you have to let the tears fall. And, that’s ok. It’s ok to not be ok. What’s not ok is not letting yourself feel those feelings. They are a part of you. They are what makes you You. So, …

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Some days, you have to use what makes you weird to make you awesome. Those things you used to trip over are going to help you fly. So, use your Universe given gifts to soar above the crowd.

So, my week started off pretty craptastic. First official day on the floor and I dropped 3 calls. Got home and had family issues. Got to work on Tuesday and found I was in ACW all night. Handle time nightmare. But I made the promise it would be better. And it was. Wednesday got free …

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